sometimes... i can suck as a friend...

bestie and i got into an email argument... at first i felt she was just bein a bitch... but... after the email exchange went on... i realized i haven't been as great a friend to her... as she has been and is to me...

the following horoscope sparked it off...

Small Straws In A Soft Wind by Marsha Burns -- December 3, 2008:
You, beloved, have again been reproached through the disappointment and disapproval of others. This has brought a sense of condemnation and a subtle, vague impression of guilt and shame. Take the time and make a conscious effort to roll away this reproach from you because it is an attack of the devil and a curse against you. Rise up in the reality of My love for you and refuse to allow this attack to bring you down, says the Lord.
Psalms 119:22 Remove from me reproach and contempt, for I have kept Your testimonies.

bestie is a big horoscope reader... and truth be told... as far as she's concerned... the ones she comes across applies to her life... and whatever situation she may be going through at that time... it's actually kind of scary... mine always be like... "you will meet someone interesting today..." i meet interesting people everyday asshole... thanks for confirming it will happen again today... tell me some shit i don't know... like "the guy you meet today is not good in bed... so don't sleep with him..." but any who...

i have a tendency to give my opinion when it's not needed... but it's because i feel like i'm helping the situation... even though i'm really not... and today... bestie let me know it... and then tore me a new one...

while i know some of the things she said were out of anger... i hope... i will say that i did need to hear them...

as a friend i'm not suppose to judge you, or tell you what's right or wrong... i'm suppose to support you... and be there for you... ~bestie

while my intentions we're good... the avenue's that i have taken in expressing my concern about the choices bestie has made for her life were not... i've been judgemental, instead of supportive... at times i've made her feel guilty instead of allowing her understand her own decisions and simply be there for her as she works through them... all in all... in many aspects... i've sucked as a friend...

and bestie... I really do apologize for treating you like that... i mean it... i was wrong... i understand why you feel the way you do... and i'm not going to treat you like that anymore... i love you.. you know that... and thanks for loving me despite of myself... and no i'm not crying... i'm cutting onions... at work... lol...

Tiffany*