so i'll make this simple... (Dear Ny)

you have a tendency to ask me "what are you thinking about?" and i almost always give you a half answer... so today... i've decided to step outside my normal guarded self... and take a serious risk... one that i haven't taken in a long time... tell you everything... so here goes...

• i can see myself falling for you... and i didn't pack a shoot... i wish i did... but if you're not expecting to fall... you don't carry around a parachute on your back...
• i just want to be someone who makes you happy...
• i miss you when you're away...
• i can't wait til i see you again...

i've known you a month... and i would have never expected to feel this way about someone so soon... i'm usually the one who is always so "by the book" so sure of herself... i'm the person who everyone talks about having... but no one can get... but with you... for some reason... all of the has changed...

i've known guys for over a year and they've never seen the inside of my house... and def haven't seen the inside of my room... and have never meet my parents... but you have...

but the main thing that consumes my thoughts... is this question...

is this ok? is it ok to like you? is it ok to want more with you? is it ok to miss you? is it ok to want to see you? is it ok?

so... there you have it... now you know what i'm thinking... and how i feel... i just hope... that maybe... just maybe... there's a part of you that feels the same...

*sigh* I WILL NOT LIKE HIM!!!!

*side bar* for some reason i'm watching "The Bucket List" in Spanish... me no speaka dat...

i've really been doing good when it comes to dating... and trying to make sure i stay single for now... but new years day... i think i may have actually met THE ONE... i digress...

kicking it at lucky strikes with a few friends... i see a couple of classmates from VSU and this guy (i didn't know him...)... i was still bowling at the time... so i waited for after my go to walk over and say hi to them... i went over to the bar section and look for my fellow alumnus... i didn't see them... but i saw a young man that was with them... so i walked over to him and asked if he knew my two classmates that i saw earlier... he said yes... and that they had went to the restroom... so i then introduced myself to him... and told him that i went to college with the two... by this time my classmates came out of the potty... lol

spoke to my classmates... caught up on old times... but then... my attention kinda drifted back to the guy i just met... let's call him "Lucky" cause i met him at Lucky Strikes... lol... i asked for the credentials on him from my college buddy... he gave me the thumbs up... and i then began to work my charm... lol...

we talked for a few... and exchanged numbers... i told him i would call... and he said he would look forward to it...

so i go back over to my other friends to finish up bowling... but was beginning to get sober... so i head back to the bar for a Brewski... i'm sitting there about to order and Lucky comes up to the bar to talk to me again... now... most times i would find this annoying... but for some reason... i didn't mind it at all... we talked... i decided to sit at the bar... we talked some more... and next thing i knew... i had missed all of my turns for bowling... and had been sitting there with him for over a hr...

his conversation was intriguing... his looks were very... very easy on the eyes... and his way were charming... and he seems so genuine... he's looking for everything that i'm looking for out of a relationship... which i didn't think that i could find... but i asked God to send me someone with certain things about them... and i think this might be him... time will tell (yeah i know... it's only been a few days... but it's kinda funny that he's exactly down to the socks what i'm looking for... lol) but we shall see... lol

Nola*