a love note...

here's a love note... i wrote to someone special...





Hey you…

I literally had like a 4 page letter that I was going to send you… Full of heart felt and loving words about my feelings for you… But it was corny… and you know that’s not my stez ;)

So I’ll just say this…

I always want you to be happy… (You know that) No matter what that means…

I miss you when you’re not there to share something special with me…

And yeah… There are times where I just want to be around you… doesn’t matter what we’re doing… or where we are…

Well I guess I’m ready to deal with the consequence of the next thing I’m going to tell you… So here goes…

Yes (such and such)… I love you… without expectation… I love you…

So I’ll close with this…

We care for each other… and most of all we understand each other… And I believe that years from now… No matter where we are in out lives… We always will…

Tiffany*

it's friday... not donig so well...

*sigh* i need a hug... or some penis... hopefully one will lead to the other...


so... went to the doc's yesterday for a check-up... and found out everything didn't check out so well...

i have to have a colonoscopy (Doc felt something on my colon... and yes... she stuck her finger up my butt and didn't even take me to dinner... or give me a good night kiss)... and i have to go to a radiology center to have my thyroid checked... guess i won't be drinking this weekend...

that's so funny... we think that if we stop a certain action... it will make everything ok...

like if i stop having unprotected sex... i'll never get a STD... or if i stop smoking i'll never get cancer... but it doesn't work like that... we just have to correct what we're doing wrong... and accept out consequence from our past mistakes...

i guess it's a bit of a wake up call... i've had a crazy nights as of late... and i haven't been taking care of myself the way at should... at least not on the weekends...

i had a small break down on the phone with Marcus this morning... he's a great friend... he just told me to wipe my face... go get something good to eat, and calm the fuck down! He's always tough on me... i'm glad i have people like that...

well... i now have to get on the phone... and make these appointments... i'm outtie...

Tiffany*

Prop 8.... Should it really be compared to Segregation????

lately... people have been comparing PROP 8 to racial segregation...

ahhhhhhhhhh... i don't know if it's as serious as that... but it is KINDA on the same lines...

A. (just my belief) being gay is a choice... being black... isn't...

B. love is love... don't really see why you would want to outlaw loving someone, and being able to express it...

Plus... i love gay people!!!! Iimean... the whole butt sex really isn't my thing... But whatever works for you!

love is love... so Prop 8... i'm flippin you the bird (the middle finger for all my special readers)!!

Simply the best video... EVER!!!!!!

YOU KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS!!!!!!!!!

Forgiveness...

*Sigh*

i really hate writing serious blogs... i guess mainly because these blogs are about my life... and i soooo don't take that serious... it's doesn't last forever...


any who...



so... i went to Wayne's funeral yesterday... sad... sad... sad...

i do not by any means want a funeral like that... i don't want an open casket... matter of fact... cremate me... stick me in a box... and fly me to Jamaica... then sprinkle me in the blue waters... call that shit a day... (btw... I'm trying to stop swearing so much...)


one part of the sermon the minister presented to us really hit home for me... it was about forgiveness...

i digress...

i'm in the 7th grade... true definition of a pyt (pretty young thang)... i have a heart of gold... i want everyone in my class to like me... meaning that i'll do just about anything to be accepted by my peers...

there's this one girl who is so popular... tanisha reid (yep... that's her real name... not using any alias' on this joint) she has personality that makes feel that you need to acquire friendship with her... which in tern allows her to manipulate people into not liking you if she sees fit...

consequently i fell in both of the categories...

for two years of my life... i was teased... picked on... and even beat up... physically but more so emotionally... and still i yearned to be friends with this child...

she encouraged people to do things to me like take my lunch, tease me about my shape (i was like 110... no boobs or butt...) and even held my arms so I couldn't defend myself as another girl slapped me...

i would come home in tears... my parents would ask me what's wrong... and me being scared of repercussions at school, and also in fear what my father would do... i would lie... (my father doesn't play... and tanisha and her mother would have easily had a bullet in their heads if he would have known anything that was going on at the time... my parents would die for me... as i would for them... nuff said)

it even got to a point where i tried to take my own life (not going into detail about that...) ... i hated her for making me feel like this... i carried this hate around with me for about 11 years...

after 8th grade graduation i told myself that i would never EVER let any make me feel like that again... i would stand up for myself at all times... i wouldn't give a hot damn what someone thought about me... which lead me to being spiteful person... i would try my best to make you cry no matter what it took... i became a bullies bully (i actually still am a bit of a bullies bully... i just can't fight... thus why use mase...) which made me look like a really mean spoiled little bitch...

So with a bit of therapy... and a few fake ass anger management classes... i've turned into the sweet person (still a bit bitchy though) that you all know and love...

i value true friendship, i love openly, and i try my best to always treat people fairly, and not trying to toot my own horn... but i'm a pretty awesome person...

i have wonderful friends that love me and family family who adores me...

they say it take pressure to make a diamond... and i'm soooo SHINNIN' BITCH...

so... tanisha... i forgive you... and even thank you... because that part of my life is a percentage of the reason i am such an amazing person today... (i kinda like tooting my own horn...)

Ba-dee ba-dee ba-dee... That's all folks!

*Nola

IT'S THE MOST WONDERFUL DAY OF THE WEEEEEEK!!!!!!!

it's that time again!!!!!

best shirt ever!

i'm glad i have you's guys...

I got this Commercial from her blog... She's great... An soooo beautiful!




this commercial is really what makes my life sooooo amazing...

no... not the commercial sillies...

the people i have in my life who understand me...

i have two great friends girl friends... Tisha & Yani... this commercials for you's!