confusion... an ode to Michael Vick...

one of my homies... who goes by the alias of Michael Vick inspired this blog...


con·fu·sion
Pronunciation:
\kən-ˈfyü-zhən\
Function: noun
Date: 14th century
1: an act or instance of confusing 2 a: the quality or state of being confused b: a confused mass or mixture
— con·fu·sion·al \-ˈfyüzh-nəl, -ˈfyü-zhə-nəl\ adjective


now... i know i haven't blogged in a long time... i've had writers block... and i've been confused about a lot of shit... so please know... that this blog will be alllllllllll over the place... wait... all of my blogs are all over the place... whatevs... don't judge me...


on love...

• why can't i love to people at the same time...
• why does it hurt that i love the people at the same time...
• why do i get tired of people so easily...
• why is that i can't be committed to one individual...
• why do i still want to be with the Jewel...
• why does he have to always be so hot and cold with me...
• why do people fall in love with the idea of me... and not fall in love with me...
• why do i always fall for the wrong guy...
• why is that we adore the ones who ignore us... and ignore the ones who adore us...
• why do we hurt the ones the love us... and love the ones who hurt us...

on gays...

• why do people put sooooo much effort into hating what makes someone happy...
• love is love... and why can't people just accept it...
• why do people who read my blog continue to disrespect another person who reads my blog on my blog... go to his blog and tell him how you feel... and stop putting you fucked up opinion on mine... (but i do appreciate your opinion... even though it's kinda fucked up...)

on friendship...

• why is so hard to find more than two best friends...
• why am i so blessed to have 3...
• why is it that i can go for weeks without talking to them... and they never take it personally... love you Yani, Tish, and Nicole!

on random shit...

• why do i have to pay insurance... i'm paying just in case some shit will happen right... so... i think my job should pay me more now... just in case i get a better job... if you work for an insurance company... and you read my blog... please know that you're the scum of the earth... and you should kill yourself... thanks...
• why are the fat people that i've come across so mean...
• what the fuck are people still eating McDonald's... and then suing that place... cause their fat asses decided to eat it...

it's a few other things i'm confused on... but i'm about to go to lunch... at whole foods... eat organic people!

Nola*

shoot me out of a canon...

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it's just pics from my canon eos digital... loves this thingy!

i love debates... (unbreakable vs. JCal456)

even more so... i love when i set one off...

when i posted this blog ... i didn't expect to get two very... very long responses off of them... and here are the two responses...


long ass response from Unbreakable.


"ummm listen i do agree with only one thing in this post, and its that being gay can modern day genocide.

simple explain two men cant reproduce.

Your saying that if it does not affect you,you should not care, that i don't agree with. I know there are tuns on thing that don't concern we at all that we talk about, whenever it come to race and sex there is a taboo.

Why cant we talk about it and share our view,if i or any other person don't support people view why cant they voice that,o but according to you we should say in our lane. This world we live in don't work like that, whatever you do affect someone else one way or the other.


So what would you do if someone one your family was gay? it would be cool to get out your so called lane!!!!!!


Whats i do believe is that people should be sensitive to other way of life. I don't support gay marriage. but it happened."

then we have the long ass response from JCal456.:

[to unbreakable]
So what if two men can't reproduce, not all relationships produce children. Are those relationships considered modern day genocide too?

Also, I don't agree with the comment you made about being able to voice your view point. Only in this situation though.
If you were sharing your p.o.v on something someone CHOSE to do that I see no problem with that, but (and i know nobody who isn't homosexual never believes this but..) homosexuality is NOT a choice. I am gay, and I didn't wake up one morning and say "hey I want to be the exact same thing that the majority of my race,country,etc. hates. In fact, from the time I became aware of what I was, I woke up saying "why do I have to be this, why can't I be 'normal'." Then I began to grow out of that old fashioned mind-state, that "everything different is wrong" mind-state, and I'm happy with exactly who I am. If I wasn't supposed to be this way, then I wouldn't be this way.

Another thing, how would being gay effect anyone but the two people in the relationship? Yeah you'd have to see two men holding hands, or kissing. But you see a man and a women doing that on practically every tv show in America, just because they're the same gender it becomes obscene?

Also, someone in your family is probably gay. I don't mean that as an insult or anything, but the odds of someone in your family being gay are pretty high. I'm willing to be everyone knows someone who is gay and they don't even realize it. Since not all gay men look alike. If you don't have a gay family member then you probably have a gay co-worker, a gay friend, someone you encounter on a daily basis. It's life.

One more thing, before I write a whole blog post in a comment haha,
I'm not for gay marriage either, only because I don't believe in marriage for myself [and marriage]. But just because I don't believe in it doesn't mean it should be illegal. If two people are in love and think marriage will work out for them, then they should be able to do whatever they want.



i've read both of their blogs... i like mr. JCal's blog more than unbreakable...
1. he's gay... i love gay men...
2. he's a cutie pie... i love gay men who are cutie pie's...
3. unbreakable's blog is very organized... and has structure... and while i do appreciate that fact... i have enough organization in my life... i have self diagnosed OCD... don't judge me... JCal's blog is all over the place (in a good way... plus... his blog has super sex mens on it...) ... just like mine... and i loves it!

but i do thank both of you all for taking out the time to read my foolishness... keep on reading... and i'll try to keep it interesting...

Nola*

just so you know... you hate whites and gays...

NO... I DO NOT HATE WHITES AND GAYS...

this titled stemmed from a conversation that occurred in my office...


man... we have some CHARACTERS where i work... it's always an interesting day in here...

but yesterday... a co-worker who i will name as Gerald... and another co-worker who i will call Mr. Vick had a very complex conversation...

Gerald... well... he's an interesting character... him and i went to the same high school... he became and alumnus waaaaay before i did... he's one of those... i love everything about black people... and black culture was perfect... before the evil white man came along and messed everything up type folk... but none the less i do thoroughly enjoy his conversation and point of views on issue of the African American culture...

anywho...

the conversation went in many directions... basically... Gerald stated that he can prove that white people are the reason that homosexuality was introduced to the African American community... that Africans lived in this perfect society... harmoniously (as i recall... we had slaves too...)... and there was not any gay like activity going on until... those blue eyed white devils came along... and showed the African men that their assholes where vagina's as well...

he also stated that gays are modern day genocide... because they cannot create a human life... and they are killing the African American community by spreading AIDS... (actually... i think down low brothers are doing that... and fried chicken...)

... i know... a lot to take in...

Mr. Vick and i then stated... you need to be careful with that... cause clearly you hate white people and gays... and you could quite possible pass that hate you have of these two groups of people to your kids...

for some odd reason... he feels as though he doesn't hate gay people... but clearly from the statements above... he does...

here's my stand on it...

people are people... i try my best not to see color... i know some bitch ass black people... and some bitch ass white people as well... if we take a moment we'd see that we're not that different... and people are just people... you have good ones and bad ones...

on gays...

now... i know being gay is a sin... (i believe in a higher being... i call him God...) but having premarital sex is a well... and cursing... and other random acts of foolishness i participate in on the weekends... so who am i to judge what someone else does with their life... as long as you're not hurting yourself and others... and you're happy and healthy... i could really care less what you do... mutha fucka's need to learn how to stay in their lane... if it doesn't affect you... the people you love... or your bankroll... why do give a fuck...

that just how i feel about it... but what does my over-confident ass know...


Nola*

apologies... don't come easy out of me...

when i first started working at the new gig... i had a guy approach me...

mind you... he didn't know me from "Eve"... but none the less... he asked me to come to his house for a "party"... i told him send me the info... and if i can make it... i'll let him know...

he indirectly asked me for my number... stating that he wasn't sure if the party was going down or not... and if it was he would call me... i declined in giving him my number... and his response was... "oh... well i'll catch up with you another time..." yeah... seemed shady to me...

so i asked a couple people around the office if the gentlemen had mention something about a "maybe" party to them... everyone looked at me and started laughing...

they were like... that was a "private party" invitation just for you maybe... he's tried that before with someone else in the office...

I WAS HEATED... i basically though he was going to try to get me to come to his house... get me drunk... and try to take advantage of me... (it's happened to a girlfriend of mine before... she got out of there ok... thank God...) but instead of coming to him and stating how i was offended by it... i stated it to others... and that wasn't fair to him...

so today... i had a talk with him... and apologized for how i had treated him... because i didn't give him a chance to tell his side of the story... he had already apologized previously to me about how i took the situation...

but yeah... that whole apology stuff... is hard... but once you make a mince... it feels a lot better...

being upset about silly stuff is kinda wack anyways...

Nola*

on some groupie ish...

OMG... OMG... OMMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

he read my blog... again... the TOP MACK NIGGA... i am sooooooooo freakin in love (but kinda like a hooker loves a pimp though... don't judge me...) with him... i'm just glad he's on the west coast... cause he'd be in a lot of trouble... well... i'd be in alot of trouble if he was on the east side... and yes... i'm actin like a groupie... again... don't judge me...

and... what don't i know about miss van!!!!

this one's for you boss ;)

BTW Boss... we need some of your fashion on the east coast babe...

Nola*

tell um how you feel tues...

so... here we go...

-dear love... fuck you and eat shit twice... i told your funky ass to stay away from me... now... cause of you... i'm thinking about getting married... go to hell...

-dear love... thanks for standing by me despite of myself... but go away... but not to far away... lol... (yep... i'm crazy...)

-look you fuckin fat monster... why the hell would you even think that i would go out with you... and i don't care what any of our co- workers say... you were going to try to get me to your house... get me drunk... and then put your sweaty body on top of mine... not today captain dill doe... not today...

- i miss Texas... but i gotta be movin on...

- Dear Chris Brown... run... run now...

- there are two girls in my office that are taking diet pills... and they haven't lost any weight... cause their still eating like the preggers... with twins...

- i'm totally in love with Adele... she's freakin awesome...

- ah... Young boi.... thanks for the movie... but i still don't like u like that anymore...

- someone slipped me a roufie this weekend... well at least i think they did... and i still can't eat anything... ugh!

i'm outtie...

Nola*