have you every loved someone so much that you would hold their hand through whatever???
i'm not talking about nigga cheated on me... or he's doesn't always act right... i'm talking about he's paralyzed from the neck down... or he's struggling with his sexuality... that type of love...
well... i've loved like this... one time... and one time only... i digress...
met this guy about a year ago... Mo... and fell hard... i'm talkin bout... can't eat... can't sleep... found my soul mate... cuttin off any other niggas type hard... i really though i had found "the one"
but a few months later... i come to find that he wasn't the one... Mo was struggling with his sexuality... (yeah... it sucked ass...) but because i loved him so much... and was in love with him... i was willing to stand by him and help him through this situation... but in the end... he left... (as a matter of fact... he broke up with me on vacation...)
this was my first and only time being in love...
now the present...
as of right now i'm ready to love again... i'm just very careful who i choose to give my love to... it's very easy for me to walk away from a situation if i see that it's not working... matter of fact... i date niggas in two week increments... every two weeks you're up for review... and if you're not putting up good points... you're getting cut... i don't really stand for much bullshit... if any...
just the other day... i had to break it down to Ny... look... at some point i have to be comfortable with dating you... and right now i'm not... now... i don't feel like i'm asking for anything crazy... i just need to know that we eventually want the same things out of each other... we don't have to be on the same page... but we do need to be reading from the same book... feel me? i've put him on notice... the next few weeks will tell... but if i had to make a decisions right now... i'd probably role... but we we'll see... i don't have anything to loose by letting the situation play out... and he is a pretty amazing guy...
that "Fool Hardy Love" was the best and the worst thing i've every been through... it taught me how to love... that unselfish... pure love... and i'm glad that i had the opportunity to love like that...
Nola*
random fact about me... i blog naked... ok bye... lol
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