yep... i'm pissed... and i'm probably gonna be that way for a while...
Ny went to the Bulls vs Wizards game last night... at first he said he wasn't going... then at the 11th hour he decided to get tickets...
now salty is an understatement for what i was... i had already expressed to him that i had REALLY wanted to go to the game... but he had his money tied up in a few things so i understood why he didn't want to buy the tickets... so i proceeded to make a doctors appt. and hit the gym afterwards... now i could have rescheduled that gym... but my doctor charges you a missed appt fee if you don't cancel in 24 hrs... (this is gonna be one of those rambling blogs... just stay with me... i'm gonna bring it in...)
Ny has ALWAYS been the type to wait to the last minute... nothing is ever planned with us... even when we're going to make plans... he'll call me 1 hour before and be like... what do you want to do... it's NEVER... hey... i got something planned for us... it sucks to be thought of at the last minute... i don't feel like a priority at ALL...
trying to talk to him is useless... cause he winds up yelling... and me crying... and i just don't feel like dealing with it today... or this week...
i'm trying help plan a funeral... my Godfather passed a month ago... (yes... a month) he's being buried in Arlington Cemetery... and i'm driving to Philly for the 1st funeral... and then driving back to VA for burial... i hate funerals... and i've just been really trying to have a positive outlook on the whole thing... and not be a Debbie Downer... but shit... i've reach my breaking point.... i'm just over this whole thing at this point...
i don't feel he cares about my feelings...
yeah... relationships suck today... all this feelings and trying to make shit work is for the birds...
Nola*
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