count down begins...

got inspired by my muze to write this blog... she's freakin great...

things you wish you could say to 10 different people:

-when i saw u this summer... you lost a bunch of weight... and when i saw u this winter... you gained it all back... so no... we can't hook up "real soon"... i'm shallow... don't judge me...

-u must have lost your got damn mind... that not even a reasonable request... and fuck as naw i'm not paying for that bullshit...

-ur an asshole... and i hope u get what's coming to you... thank God i only have to work for u for a few more weeks... and after that... i'm moving upward and onward... and there's nothing you can do about it... btw... your not white... you Iraqi... no matter what position u hold white people will always see u as a sand nigga... get over it... (they're just not gonna tell you that cause they think you might blow up some shit...)

-take care of your kids and stop putting them off on other people... and stop bitchin about paying child support...

-i like spending time with you... but that's about it...

-i'm really glad we became friends... u freakin rock out... ur a total stuck up bitch... just like me... and u kinda let me know it's ok to be like that... sometimes... lol

-please stop calling me during the day... the only times it is acceptable for you to call is friday or saturday... after 10 pm... u are a jump off... please know your role...

-dear cowboys... fuck u... and... i wish i would have had a chance to say goodbye before you went to the "A"... but don't u worry... i'll be down there this summer... hell yeah i'd fly down there to tap that...

-yes... i have gained a little weight since high school... and you've developed a crack habit...

-i got u a Christmas gift because i wanted to... and yes... i knew u couldn't afford to get me one... but the look on your face when i gave it to you was the best gift i've got this year... i love u... don't ever put a value on what we have...

things about yourself:

-i have serious commitment issues... and i'm not sure if i'll ever resolve them...

-i procrastinate on things that i should take care of right away... except for things that have to deal with my health... and my blog...

-i have an unhealthy obsession with Tristen Wilds... i don't care how old he is...

-the only person i really like at my church is the pastor... he's the only one who doesn't judge me about my views on religion...

-i love kids... as long as i can give them back... and yes i do happen to be good with kids... and no... i don't want to baby sit your little evil as gremlins... if i wanted to watch some kids... i'd have one or two...

-i'd honestly cry more if my dog die... than if someone on my fathers side would... i don't like those fuckers... (but i love my daddy!)

-i'm a sleep farter...

-i love to dance around in my underwear... and sing in my hairbrush...

ways to win your heart:

-love and respect your mother...

-if you have kids... love and respect your child's mother... i don't care how difficult she is...

-love me for who i am...

-always be fair to me... no matter how much it hurts...

-make me laugh...

-have an education... and at least a college degree (or be in the process of getting one...)

-have a clean house...

-be able to cook (or at least want to learn how to cook...)

things that cross your mind often:

-why is it so hard to say i love u to someone... but so easy to say i hate you...

-why the fuck to people eat McDonald's... that is the most unhealthy shit in the world... watch SUPER SIZE ME...

-would my life be different if i had grandparents???

-why do people put so much into religion... instead of putting effort into bettering the lives of other people...

-why do artist like Common and Talib Kweli get set to the back burner... while fack ass lame marc-ass buster... ass munching... turd fuckers... like 50 cent get major play on the radio...

-i'm in love with Nas... and Common... and Pharrell...

-i pooted... hope no one smelled it... and if they did... i'm gonna blame it on my manager...

things you do before you go to sleep:

-pray (well at least i try to...)

-get a glass of tea with cream and honey...

-talk to either... the Jewel... Texas Ranger... Young Boy... or Nice look Ne-Yo...

-watch Adult Swim...

-sing love songs... and think about Texas Ranger...

-take a bubble bath...

people you couldn't live without:

-mommy

-daddy

-bestie

-bottom boo

-and maybe Texas...

things you're wearing right now:

-Joe's Jeans...

-Tiffany & Co Bracelet...

-the hand me down diamonds my mother gave me...

-Rosebud Strawberry Lip Balm...

songs that fit your life perfectly:

-Frontin' by Pharrell Williams...

-Amazing Love by Luther Vandross

-Didn't Cha Know by Erykah Badu

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things you want to do before you die:

-visit Africa

-get married... (these aren't the most important things i want to do before i die though...)

confession:

-hmmmmm... i hate my body sometimes...